Chapter 12

Chapter 12

The snow had slowly stopped falling.

It had accompanied me down the mountain, carrying all my memories with it.

Earlier, I had asked the doctor—would the final days be very painful?

I was really scared of pain.

When I got home, I looked at myself in the mirror. I looked like an old woman—so ugly.

But I was only thirty years old.

I didn't want to suffer day after day like this.

So I had written a letter to Xiao Yu, asking for her forgiveness.

Then I had picked up one sleeping pill after another and swallowed them.

It was okay to be a little cowardly before dying, right?

"Mom, Dad, we'll be reunited soon."

Before I knew it, I seemed to have fallen into a long dream.

In my dream, I heard William Green say: "Annie Brown, even if you have to crawl, you better crawl back here and sign the divorce papers!"

Before that, I had walked out of the hospital and gotten into a car accident...

What had happened to me?

Was I dead or alive?

"Yes, her parents passed away a long time ago. She has... yes, she has a husband!"

In a daze, I heard Xiao Yu's cries.

I realized that I was floating in mid-air.

I watched as Mariafound the divorce certificate I had placed in my suitcase.

Then, between sobs, Mariacalled her boyfriend and asked him to come over to help.

To help take care of my funeral arrangements.

Sigh. I was still causing her trouble.

Finally, Mariafound the letter I had written to her.

"Xiao Yu,

By the time you read this letter, I will probably already be dead. Please don't be sad for me, because dying was my own choice.

I have cancer—esophageal cancer. It's already too late to treat it. I can't even eat the foods I love anymore, and sometimes I can barely even speak.

William Green and I got a divorce.

Sigh, I must look really ugly right now.

Xiao Yu, I don't want to live like this anymore. I want to leave with a little dignity. So... please forgive me for being a coward this once.

As my best friend in this world, I have to ask you a favor—to take care of my funeral arrangements. And I won't let you do this for nothing.

My ex-husband gave me a lot of money. I'm leaving all of it to you. Remember to pay for the upkeep of my grave, and just come visit me once a year. That's all I ask.

I picked out my favorite photo to use as my portrait. You'll see it when you're packing up my things.

It's a one-of-a-kind— I burned all the other photos. You won't be able to find any others.

I'm also leaving this apartment to you. I've already cleared out all my things. If you don't like it, you can sell it.

This New Year's Eve is so lively. I wonder which wealthy person paid for all these fireworks? They're beautiful. I can die without any regrets now that I got to see them before I closed my eyes.

Please don't hold a funeral for me. Just let me leave this world quietly.

And one more thing—don't let William Green come to see me. I don't want to see him. If he insists on coming, tell him that I will never forgive him for as long as I live. Tell him I wish we had never met.

There's nothing else I need to say. My will is on another piece of paper.

I can't remember all the details of what I left, but everything that was written in the divorce agreement is yours. I also recorded a video as proof—remember to give it to the notary public.

Xiao Yu, even though I won't be here anymore, please live happily for the rest of your life.

Your dearest,

Annie Brown"